FLASHBACK
I will tell you my deepest darkest secrets and pour out all my pain. You look as if you do not care and tell me it does not matter. I will flashback to the memories that tear my soul like hungry wolves that catch their prey. I am torn and bleeding , I see a face of a child that is my own blood and though so young, she has me wrapped around her finger. Childhood games they often play you say, I will gladly stick you in the storybook and let you tell the nightmare. You have not lived my life or felt the things i have. You may have endured worse or similar, but not the same. So don't tell me my flashbacks don't matter, like hell they don't . Until you flashback to my childhood you have nothing left to say.
trust
I will not trust you , for what to have my heart ripped out and thrown out on the floor? I will not trust you to be there when i need you because something will always come up. I will not trust you to love me, for how could one love someone like me? I will not trust you to be there forever, because nothing is forever. I will not trust you with anything, because to trust is to get hurt.
warning(religion)
tammy
There is a little fairy and her presence is from the devil . She flys forever around me. Throwing her flesh eating dust, which eats at me every day. When she sees it working, her and the devil laugh. They want me to turn from god, but this will never happen. Because my saviour carrys me, and i will forever carry his light in my heart.

the dying horse
The beautiful creature is twisted and mangled, like my soul. His eyes go dim like my happiness, he tries to get up but it hurts too bad. So he wishes to die like i often do. So he closes his eyes and gives up. What else is he to do?

inner child

If you are afraid i will hold you. If you need a shoulder to cry on i am there. If you fell alone i will reach out and touch your soft cheek. If i feel abandoned i will tell you "know i am here" . And at night when you fall asleep, i will say "sleep soundly my sweet child"

mable/michelle

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